First a disclaimer or note to readers: I did read Eat, Pray, Love and am proud to say I did discover it before it became one of 'those books' that everyone has read and is everywhere and is now a movie... which I doubt I will see anytime soon. Both because of my current location and because I am hesitant to. This post refers to the book but please see beyond that if you are one of the people sick and tired of hearing about 'the book.'
It was almost two years ago when it felt like my entire life was under question. I knew what I didn't want to be doing and who I didn't want to be doing it with but I was still figuring out what that meant in terms of where, what and with who I DID want to be. My solution was to borrow a simple exercise from Elizabeth Gilbert in the now infamous book Eat, Pray, Love. Early on in the book she talks about how she just kept asking herself what she really, really, really, really, really wanted to do. (I may have got the number of 'really's' off here - I don't have the book on hand to provide references) She kept asking this and kept listening to the responses. She did dismiss responses nor did she jump on any immediately. But she listened for the ones that 'stuck' and for the patterns that emerged in them. I tried that and ended up spending my last months in Asia exploring places and experiences with people that truly made me and allowed me to laugh. I ended up hopping over to the UK to take up the Masters that I had always wanted to do. And I landed in Canada to begin a journey of coming home, really HOME. Thinking that worked out pretty well... and coming to another point where I see a blank sheet, foggy road, open field in front of me... I thought I would try it again.
So I am asking myself... what do I really, really, really, really, really want to be doing, today - and I am listening to the daily responses - the changes, the patterns and looking forward to how things emerge around that.
Yesterday - I wanted to be eating, cooking, sharing food that I've helped grow - enjoying the abundance of nature and live, friendship and family - over a kitchen table.
Today - I want to work with farmers and rural towns to build resilience and alternatives; I want to raise and cook food that gets talked about in magazines and books; I want to ride horse
What will tomorrow be, I am looking forward to find out...